I've tried several times this week to write, but have found my screen blank. Where has my muse been hiding? I realized today that I've been a bit out of sorts this week, dare I even say a bit depressed. I think I'm generally a happy person and aside from the little challenges, I have a great life. I'll blame it on the January blues (though it has been in the 70s and sunny here all week), but I feel like tonight I have finally pulled out of the downward spiral. The funny thing is that I can tell I'm up on the up-swing because I started to think about goals for this year and things that I want to improve in me. And I started to feel happy again--big smile!
I love thinking about goals and setting goals. I'm not always great at the follow-through, but it's great to know that we can change things about ourselves that we don't like and be better tomorrow than we are today. (My first goal should be to have a positive outlook on my future--check that off my list tonight!) I have to give props to the exercise, long shower and good meal that have helped me feel like a normal person again. Oh, and the fact that the cold/flu I've been fighting all week has finally subsided.
Although everyone has their ups and downs, I tend to get down on myself for my humanness. I forget that everyone feels how I do at times and that I'm normal. Today I've resolved to look at the positive and make some goals for this year. It's my golden birthday next month, so I've got to make it a great one. Great makes me feel some pressure, so we'll just say a good one.
I made a note about this in my last post, but I find it funny that all the January magazines use the slogan: New Year, New You! They just recycle their cover from last year, put the slogan in a new location on the magazine jacket and BAM! Cover updated. Good to see they're not stretching their creative limits. (I am especially annoyed at my Shape magazine because they 1) started putting celebrities on their covers instead of regular girls. And by "regular" I mean models that work out seven days a week for a couple of hours a session, but I could be one of them because they're not celebrities. 2) January features Sheryl Crow in a bright yellow swim suit. Ok, so, she's dating Lance Armstrong. That doesn't mean she only wears that color yellow. Get over it and choose another color!)
So, who do I want to be this year? I call it my wish list, because there are certain things that I wish I did differently, but am not certain I can change. Not to be a defeatist, but is it possible to alter one's body chemistry? For example, I wish I was more of a morning person. But I find that even when I go to bed early (10 pm) I have a hard time coaxing myself out of bed before 9am. I point my finger back to my early days when I was but a child and my mother put me to bed at 8pm. I would sleep until 10am the next morning (that's a lot of sleep). And I still require that much! So, do I make a goal and hope for the best? I guess the new me would do that. I just decided that.
I'm not going to post all my goals here. I don't want to be accountable to my readership (which I have learned includes three people), but I'll list the general outline if only for my purposes:
1) School goal: plan my weeks carefully and read ahead where possible
2) Physical goal: go to bed earlier (10pm), get up by 7am, work out 4-5 times a week (use the gym membership)
3) Spiritual goal: I'm not sure just yet. Something about studying my scriptures topically.
4) Social goal: attend one church activity a week (ie: FHE, Institute, ward activity)
5) Misc goal: finish my photo album captions
Yeah, so they're basically the same as last year's goals if that tells you how I did in 2005. Maybe I need to come up with some new, radical goals. Or maybe I need to write down the goals that I actually do. For example, in 2005 I wanted a change and I got a BIG change in my life by moving to
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